She passed away at 11:17 pm on June 19th just before Fathers Day.Our days to follow would be numb trying to make sense of it all. From the beginning we knew we would be on a Mission for the rest of our lives to help others. This is what Brianna did, she was a healer and helped others when nobody else would, her smile would make your legs feel like jello, her eyes would pierce through you with joy.
We left and went back to the room we were numb because our life just ended. How would we cope with this? How would we live our life without you? How would we be able to get up? All these things rushing through my mind.. It was not real. We packed everything up, the letters, animals and pictures that people brought you, we decided to go home we had no reason to stay our baby was gone.
I walked out of your room and stared, sobbing knowing I would never come in here and see you, I then stared down the long hall that I walked so many times and knew I would never walk this hall again to touch you, to hold you, to talk to you.
We got in the car, as we drove away from the hospital I felt a harsh pain “REALITY” my body felt like jello all I could do is stare out the window and wonder WHY?
Daddy knew when he first found you that you were not going to go like that, he fought so so hard to keep you with us, we were not ready to tell you good-bye then.
We do not know why she did this and we never will, in my heart I believe she did not mean it, I do not think she knew the outcome would be forever, she thought she would just pass out and then she would wake up again. I know that at the end some kid said some very painful things to Brianna, we all knew she was strong but she had a the softest heart and that is what some people did not realize. I have heard since this that kids play the "choking game" they passout for a high, now I am not sure if this is what Brianna was doing, but I know she wanted to live, she was afraid to die, and only wanted to live life to the fullest. I remember when school got out she told me she was ready to move, she was ready to start new and leave all the drama and bullshit behind, we were just waiting for school to get out..
We had issues just like any parent, our children have such a hard time and we try our hardest to be there when they need us. We never thought our daughter would have so much pain that she would want to leave us.
We are reaching out to schools, parents, children and the media to get our story out and create awareness.
The B.R.I foundation will be for awareness of all of these awefull things that our kids are going through. We know there will be denial from parents, schools and our society, but guess what you better wake up! trust me you do not want to go through what we are.
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